Mayb' it was only me...
All those were fake.
i'm tired and don't wanna go through these again.
why's my life like that?
i really don't know what are you thinking lo.

i'm hangin' on the rope
got me ten feet off the ground...

now i'm working & seriously damn bored.
am thinking 'bout next sat's matter.
hais..

anyway, haiya.
problems are never ending...
future is always unpredictable.
unforeseen.

seriously, i think work is better than studying.
my family now is a sorta dire straits. (is that the right phrase?)
heck la.
last time the account has $***** and now it's left with $****.
so you see, it's alot of difference.
and so, i might not be able to go university next time.
i'll work hard for scholarships then.
or worse to worse, i won't go university lo.
just work.
if i can, then work to pay for university fees?

i seriously feel like crying now. not 'cause we have not enough money but like,
my life's going to change and my future's really blur.
why do some people get richer and richer within just a few years? say, TWO years!
he gets really rich and is in a life of enjoyment.
and why i'm human, they're also human but we've got different life right..
hais.

i know i'll delete this post one day soon.
maybe some of you may say, hey i'm worse.
but it's like haiya, hard to explain.
typed this post to vent only, not for comparison.
& i swear i'll break down if i'm alone now.
damn down. ):







TODAY IS TIRED DAY!! AGREE PEOPLE????
hahahahas!
the first day of school is always tired, especially REBUS, the main cause of our lack of sleep!

& went school with Eileen.
writing the dates and sources of my REBUS in the bus...lols.
anyway, couldn't pay attention in classes. was too restless..

& the worse part comes!
REBUS term test results!
GOSH~! I FAILED~!
hmm.. so Mr Raymond Wong was like, " did you study for REBUS?"
& i knew it.
hahahas~!
actually the impressive thing was i didn't cry!
'cause when i was in secondary school,
if i fail a paper that i've put effort into, which means i did study, i'll be sad to learn that i've failed.
Yea..i'm disappointed though.
but surprisingly, i can still smile and joke for the rest of the day. (:
hmm..perhaps i've grown up? or become more mature? xP

so when Mr Raymond Wong ( his name's so long seh!) was looking through our sketch books, i noticed he was nodding his head when he looked at mine luh!
then, he flipped to the cover page to see the name i guess, and he nodded again.
LOL! was quite happy.. *smiles*

after that, went to eat with Eileen at Design School.
& i regretted TREMENDOUSLY!
'cause i'm bloated, damn bloated!

& last of all, i'm proud to say that i'm in a Polytechnic and not a Junior College.

Oh Ya! TONG SM! If you ever come to my blog, i want to tell you, PLEASE STUDY HARD~! JIAYOU~!
Xjt isn't goin' to help you pass your A's!
After exams, we go eat nicenice desserts again! =D

OH! & ALL THE BEST FOR ALL JC FRIENDS TAKING THEIR EXAMS OR TESTS~! JIAYOU~!!


Finally finished Wrtoral and REBUS~!!
*cheers~!!!*
anyway, not really finished la..'cause it's sloppy work.
yeps.

& so, i realised i get along with some people within a short time aye?
like some people is talk for a while but seems like we've known for years lo.
nice to chat with.
lols.

& so, continue with my joy!
Imagine you've finished something which you mugged till 6am~! damnit!
first time in my life i stayed up, not closing my eye more than a 5 second till 6am~!
stupid projects and assignments man~!

school's starting tomorrow.it's TODAY~!!
and the procedure repeats every single day once again.
my mom jus' came out and ask me to quit Nebo, which i don't wish to.
& so, stood firm on my decision and she let me work for the time being lo.

& once again, i really hate to wait for sms-es~!! argh!


today's working day and my partner was Germaine.
she's quite nice to chat with aye?!
hahahhas. anyway, today we were too bored and surfed the net for some weight lossing stuff luh!
& realised that in order for ME to lose to my DESIRED weight, i'm only allowed to consume 200++ calories worth of food only, which is equals to around 2 bananas?

Ooo, speaking of bananas,
Germaine brought banana and when i saw it, i jus' say,"one banana is equals to a hamburger worth of calories."
& the banana never gets eaten till now lo!
LOL.
& we were practically exercising while working.
hahahhas!
stretching and exercising arms and what have you... xP

& She saw Gary and was sorta interested in him! hahahahs~!

anyway, went home at 8pm and got started on REBUS.
and till now, i'm only done with 8 articles! Damnit~!

& i'm tired of waiting for sms-es...sick of these kinda life.


was chatting jus' now again.
but this time was with a long-time-no-chat friend.
and he made me realise how fast people/humans change.
like,
how to say..
suddenly he's so successful luh!
in many aspects.
and i do feel abit inferior but it's okay ba. jus' full of envy.
my bo-chap character made me the person i am today, presently.
i do hope i can be that successful but i can't find any talent in me la, honestly.
many of you mus' be nodding your heads and agreeing with me. LOLS.
perhaps this friend don't know but actually, i think they are one of the most cherished group of friends i wished to stay friends with ba.
They changed part of my life.
& lastly, it was really really unexpected of him to start the conversation.


Today printing cards for the whole day.
finally learnt printing cards luh!
it's like i've been in Nebo for more than a month then learnt.All so shocked lo.
LOLS, it's 'cause i always go do promoting ma..

then, next week onwards only work two days per week. ):
can only see a few of them.
& all went Malaysia or will be going le..
i want go too~!!!! ):
never mind la.see when free then go back lo..
long time no see my ah ma le...


gosh the time now!
lols.
anyway, feeling wayyy better than i was hours ago...lols.
was talking to friends and it's like so long never spill everything out once and for all le..
so now, i'm sorta light-hearted...hmm..
not that sad/stressed/depressed anymore.
(:
SMILE PEOPLE~! A BIG ONE PLEASE~! =D


心情糟透了！

Oh Ya!
HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY, SAMUEL CHUNG LIPIDS~!
Not like you always use the com and can see this message though.
Anyway, Wish you er...
last long long with Lyn!,
Wish what then got what! (心想事成啦！)
Then, Gain more lipids so that you can be fatter then me! wahahahhahs~! xP


i think work at Nebo is getting better.
i'm sorta starting to feel the bond among many of us.
people there are fun & funny.
okays.
so Sunday went for FRF at DE roadshow.
it so happens that the people are people that we are closer to la.
was like so funny 'cause when i finished their water,
the water was excreted from my head luh!
All thought i went to bath lo!
anyway, there's lots of jokes all the time and is like forever laughing de.
:)

After the Roadshow and keying of information,
went to watch The Happening with LinFeng and JunWei.
the show's scary too!!
Gore all the way sia.
funny things happened as well. LOL.

Then, today also went to work.
now work is not that sian anymore.
but projects and assignments are taking a toil on me.
hais.
Sometimes i really wished i'm working and maybe not studying?
i think the day when i'll have to leave Nebo, i'll be very sad.
The thought of it sorta makes me sadder.
Though i'm quiet to people i don't really talk to luh.

人生必定有生离死别，
因此我们得接受现实
积极面对一切。
伤心当然是难免的，
而我。。。最憎那感受。

离与别，
人生最常见的
离别后，
是否会再联络旧同事呢？

因为离别，
人于人的关系渐渐疏远。
情况再也不一样了。

有些朋友，
曾经好到能同睡一张床，
因为离别，
之后见面就如萍水相逢的朋友。

人会变。
心机难测。

perhaps due to the long period of non-chinese days,
i've forgotten many words and all.
should study more chinese on my own aye? :)


guess today's another wordy post.
anyway, yesterday watched KungFu Panda with Ah Man!
was hilarious!
and after that went to eat the mountain-tall mango ice.
& went 4e2's class gathering at 85 lo.
food's great and of course, the bunch of them are love.
meetups with them are always joyful. (:

Then, today wet Tm with AhYap and went her house.
Eileen came along la.
& when i was going home i realised i lost my Ezlink which i spent a long time finding.
In the end found it in my bag. -.-"

was on the verge to write certain emo da dao li again la.
but ar, better not.so it's not that wordy le ba.
(:

mayb' what i've said is too straight.
but it's a fact.

Oh, I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we
did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back
But I know you did

As always, in the middle of the night is practically the best time to think and think 'bout stuffs under the sky.

many times really wanted to jus' write out certain things but is afraid of who will read it and so, it's locked.
when it's locked, i still worry 'bout who's reading it as well.
or whether the person involved knows my pass or not.

sometimes, it's jus' confusion and not the fact.
several actions got me thinking whether it's real or not.
but i never trust what i see or what i hear.
jus' hope everything can resolve on its own.

i hate the feelings whereby i don't know exactly how i feel.
even i can't understand myself.
i don't understand why i do the things i do, say the things i say or feel the way i feel.
the only thing i can say is certain people changed my life completely and really,... what's the word here?.. jus' changed my life la.
sometimes i wish i've never met these peoples and do the things i did.
however, they always taught me something new.let me learnt a lesson.

you may think you understand me alot.
but in fact, there's so much i've never told you
there's a side of me you've never seen.
in fact, you know nothing 'bout me. (:

perhaps to many people i may be childish
but i'm aware of what i'm doin' certain times
i'm thinkin' of things you will never thought that i'm thinking.

and now, i'm doing my report when i've only written less than 10 words in MS Words.

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words,
Are said too much

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?


Now everything's not right.
no la.not the things that's not right ba,
the problem lies with me.

anyway, was working for the past few days.
quite a lot of things happened.
happy de la most.

Then today went Bugis with Daph.
Shopped and ate quite a lot.
talked alot too~
(:

haiya. very irritated by many things now la.
sian-ed.


This post should be dated 6 june actually.
for i'm back tracking .. (:

yesterday FACOM was wayyyy easier beyond my imagination.
'cause i've planned to jus' fail FACOM from the start and didn't memorise anything.
jus' understand CERTAIN parts here and there only.
seems like now the paper's quiteeee easy, i may not have to fail la.
but mayb' be the lowest in the class lo.hahahas~

Then, went home and rest a while & enjoy my SCV while Yap preparing to go WWW with me luh!
hahahahas. she have free tickets to Wildwildwet from her friends (Thanks Yap's friends~!) and we went to play whereas Eileen they all don't know go where la.
Saw my NEBO colleagues and they say that i'm too free always hanging out at Downtown East or EHub. LOL but it's 'cause i live near these places what~!!!!
Okays back to Www.

We played every ride but gave the must-play Samsung slidedown a miss that day.
As i've not been sleeping well due to studies, i scared my heart cannot take it la. xP
Then went to play family ride so many times that the person tending the ride know us la.
As we have only two person, we always manage to go first to cover up the amount of other groups which have 4 person only. yeps! ( the guy tending the ride was shuai.agreed by AhYap righttt???)

After that went KBox with AhYap and Eileen they all came a while lo. The opening promotion's on till next Sat only!
& now me and Yap have the KBox membership too~!! FOC~!
hahahahahas~!
So the whole day was entertainment day.
spent Quiteee a lot of money but was well-worth la.

As for today, nothing much to say.
'cause i just woke up like a few minutes ago and i'm eating my breakfast now. (:

& i jus' like my posts to have many many colours. (:


second posts in less than an hour!
but now people are like saying 21 DEC 2012 will be doomsday, which means end of the world la.
OMG!
by 2012, i'm..lemme think...21 years old ONLY~!
damnit! i don't want to die so early!
i'd rather die of water poisoning la! at least i'm doin' something i love,
in this case, drinking water la.
hahahahas.
anyway, thought of many things you see,
as many of my friends know, i wanna get married by the age of 23. LOL.
"wa! so YOUNGGGG~!" is the typical reaction i get from most of the people i know.
anyway, heck la.

then again, what would you do if like you know tomorrow is doomsday le leh?
i think i'll .. hmm nono...change..
what if like you know one week later is dommsday?
longer time for me ma.. =P

i'll ask all my friends out. Spend quality time with them.
then, fly to M'sia, i mean take aeroplane la.
to find my Grandma..
then, spend my last days with her.LOL.

hmm..friends and Grandma are my life. (:

What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there?
Ohh..that's sad. lonely...cs so lonely..... wahahhahas!
What would you do if for every moment you were truly happy there would be 10 moments of sadness?
ahh..truly happy ar, then worth it. i'll be willing to be sad then.
What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt?
i sure want die also sia. cry until cannot liao. damn sad.

"Sometimes in life, you find a special
friend;
Someone who changes your
life
just by being part of it.
Someone who makes you
laugh
until you can't stop
Someone who makes you
believe
that there really is good in the
world.
Someone who convinces you
that there really is an unlocked door
just waiting for you to open it. "

REBUS today!
was damn stressed in the morning when i heard each of them saying out those REBUS things with ease as they memorised many things.
& me leh, i only memorised Option to Purchase and Sale & Purchase luh!
Then, went blank during examination..
so if i passed, it's a miracle, really.
Hope my MCQs will save me ba.
& Thanks to Shawn, he told us what makes a GOOD solicitor.
& it came out as a 4-mark question.

Then, went with classmates to eat and cable room(as usual) to study.
but obviously most of us wasn't in the study mood la!
hmm, i actually love our class more as well, despite the class being sotsot most of the time.
We're always in a world of OUR own. lols..

Went Tm eat mac & saw Cher and Andrea!
like how many billion zillion years( exaggerating only la~!) never see ♥them le.

Watched the guys pool-ed & it was funny at certain points of time la.LOL.
but my stomach pain again & went home early.
like so long since Sec 4 never like that le then now like that again..haiyo.
(pardon me for my english xP)

But N804 clique is love♥.
Reb bought milk for me .LOL.
damn touched~
=D

brinjals♥

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hmm..it have been a habit of mine to always contradict myself.
hais..but many things are worth thinking, or rather, i always will think of many things ba.
many things i'll regret, many things i wished i've done, wished i hadn't, so many lo.

But sometimes like when you hope you've done that, then you accomplished it, you wish u hadn't.
aiya. readers might be confused as to what i'm tryin' to say ba..
lols..
anyway, jus' some random thoughts lo.

My bro's friend came to my house to ton and my sister and i overheard his conver.
it's admirable how brave he is, to confess jus' like that.LOL.
but he got rejected and still, like got feng du sia.
but damn cute la.
yong qi ke jia~
little boys...lols..

hmmm..last but not least,
HOPE THE WHOLE N804 PASS THEIR TESTS WITH FLYING COLOURS
& we can promote together without the class being split. (:
HOPE MY ACES, & ALL MY FRIENDS PASS THEIR EXAMS WITH FLYING COLOURS TOO
so no one will be sad & we can all graduate together. (:

life's unpredictable.

3 more daysssss~