think i'm switching to wordpress..
but not for the time being..
have to figure out how to make my own skin first...
after the skin's done then tagboard and stuff ..
everything's ready then i move blog... hee...

now going to school seems to be a chore for me.
forever late and getting hard to be punctual.
and damnit! i dropped my specs somewhere so now i'm like blind lor...

today went Biz school for IHT lessons...
too bad 8 of us dunno how to navigate around la...
IHT's nice and quite fun.
having a project but haven really decided where should i do...
also had a birthday celebration for Bibi.
but guess my actions made her suspect?
anyway HAPPY BIRTHDAY BIBI DEAR~!!!

drop this topic first.
went for movies with Sis and bro.
First time in our life watching movie together !
HSM is REAL NICE KAY!
peeps! Go watch!!!

shall mass photo upload when i'm using my lappy...
guess you ppl realise my post nowadays are damn random right...
dunno la...
life's very sian one...

anger makes one look older.
don't be angry, cs!
recently there's people telling me like why i've got no temper in the past but i have it now...
they tell me i've changed.
but in fact, did i?
i don't know...

wordpress faster let me figure you out!


just came back from work.
seriously i love working more.
it cheered me up~!
hee..

anyway, work today was very senang and we met new friends.
Yuki was very nice too, 'koping' a BIG abalone for me, Eileen, Yap and Ong.
ate and drank shark's fin that's like as thick as a comb can?!?!
gosh!
if only, i'm the person who afforded these luh~!

Was separated from Eileen and Yap as they were doing the right side and me, the left.
but lucky i'm not doing their side.
stricter...

New friend: Hui Mang!
He's a guy from Tcc and we were supposed to lead him the way and stuff lor.
as usual, we don't really talk to people we lead la.
but it so happens that he was working same side with me.
Helped me alot as well...
he waited for us after work though we were like taking our own sweet time bathing lor...
then, went home and each of us received a msg from him saying that it's his pleasure knowing us and thanked us for that!
seriously, damn nice can?!?!
Yap agreed that he looked like Lin Feng...
as in the nEbO one la...
yea.. he do...

met familiar faces while working too..
one was from Hilton...

God's being nice to me i guess.
for letting me have a nice day...

oh ya! i've created wordpress.
guess i'll be switching after the skin and all is done.
'cause i've never touch any other blogsites other than blogger.
still very 'mao dun' lor.
'cause blogger's skin's my production la~!
first skin i made lor...
hais...

now is fan time..
switch or don't switch??
hais!


Baby won't you tell me why there is sadness in your eyes
I don't wanna say goodbye to you
Love is one big illusion I should try to forget
But there is something left in my head
You're the one who set it up now you're the one to make it stop
I'm the one who's feeling lost right now
Now you want me to forget every little thing you said
But there is something left in my head

Chorus:
I won't forget the way you're kissing
The feeling's so strong were lasting for so long
But I'm not the man your heart is missing
That's why you go away I know
You were never satisfied no matter how I tried
Now you wanna say goodbye to me
Love is one big illusion I should try to forget
There is something left in my head


Yes i know
Sitting here all alone in the middle of nowhere
Don't know which way to go
There ain't so much to say now between us
There ain't so much for you
There ain't so much for me anymore

That's why you go away I know
-Michael learns to rock's That's Why You Go Away


People please don't misunderstand.
i'm not emo-ing with these songs but it's jus' that these songs are nice.
i think i'm getting over everything and facing fact.
it's something that i have to admit..
so what if you trust?

trust, once betrayed,
hard to get back.

Yap & Shawn...
Sorry for not being able to absorb what you all have told me.
your words have just got in a while ago.
but let bygones be bygones.

okays enough of these shit.

TODAY~!
woo... today was late for school again.
overslept... wanted to skip the first hour as i was lazy as usual
but bibi ask me to faster go school so went to school lor...
PSPS is still as boring as usual.
groupings are another problem.
Problems seem to like to tag along with me aye...
saw things that i don't want to see.
read things that i don't want to know.

anyway, today gonna work at St Regis.
hopefully, everything will turn out fine.
tired today.

Promise to me: :) never to say sorrys or thank yous about this matter anymore.

YESTERDAY~!
yesterday had sociology.
Lucky there's HongJie...
anyway, UNCLE.. you've been a good friend all along... =D

i'm seriously crapping lor...
BYE~!


sometimes i wished i could let go more easily.
at times i tell my friends how they shouldn't beg their guy for it's their guy who does not appreciate them.
but talk and action are two different things.


it's hard to let go.
i'd rather i never knew you in the first place.
there are still many questions i will want to ask but didn't.
people say time is what you need to wash away the memories aye?

I'm sittin' here all by myself
just tryin' to think of something to do
Tryin' to think of something, anything
just to keep me from thinking of you

But you know it's not working out
'cause you're all that's on my mind
One thought of you is all it takes
to leave the rest of the world behind

Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back
but I know you did

Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back
I know it's not the smartest thing to do
we just can't seem to get it right
But what I wouldn't give to have one more chance tonight (one more chance tonight)

I'm sittin' here tryin' to entertain myself with this old guitar
But with all my inspiration gone it's not gettin' me very far
I look around my room and everything I see reminds me of you
Oh please, baby won't you take my hand
we've got nothing left to prove
-Plain White T's A Lonely September

i'm still thinking if i should change my blog to wordpress...
I'm like SUPER late for my lesson now!

These few days consisted of much ups and downs.
more of downs perhaps.

anyway, people.
i will not wallow in depression.
i know if i do so, many people will be worried
and for those who have stood beside me, i really appreciate it and without you all, i don't know how will i be now.
for those who have adviced or scolded me, i know you all will scold 'cause you all care.
but some things are hard to put down.

i'm sorry for those who i've ignored or mayb' thrown my temper on.
really sorry.

how i wish i'm more bo chap like in the past.
then, i would be a much more happier person.

now that my blog has became private, i can name people aye... heh..
THANKS alot to Yap, Eileen, Cerlyn, Sam, Shawn.
THANKS alot to Bibi, Jling and more.
THANKS to those i've not named or missed out.
i can only say i'm glad i've always ♥love my friends.

for now, i hope school will approve my second cds.
i dread going home.
i'm also sorry i dread facing some people. sorry for being unfilial.
i dread having free time now.
free time has became either housework time or emo time.

For ♥Bibi,
when i was down, you told me alot of things.
you can tell me then must also do the same for yourself kays...
i'm not one who know how to console people.
that's why when you're down, i didn't say much.
but if you down, can always find me.
my shoulders are always there kays.
♥

As for ♥MY ACES,
you all know i'll also always be there for you all,
just like how you all have always been there for me.
i don't want mushy mushy with you all le la... but you all know what i mean lor..
I LOVE YOU ALL... hehe...


it's very hard to please everyone.


what does home mean to everyone?

skip that question.
anyway, been having chalet for wed to fri.
and sat, working.
workin is fun, of course.
met new people and so on.

don't really know what i wanna blog now but yea...
and so, i would want to have privacy but no, that's not possible.
at times, i would wish they would try going school themselves.
i'm not as clever as my sis going to a jc and i wouldn't want to.
why can't you all accept that i'm in poly and i have a total different life from her?
i believe if i'm a parent, i would not want my child to dread going home and talking to me lor.
perhaps, i'm not the best daughter you can find and i don't know how to change myself to be one.

some feelings can be sensed.
no need anyone to say but we can understand hor...

and i got into sociology for cds... cool...

til then.


我在想，当你那么看重一个人，那个人未必也一样看重你。
我也想，当你编了一个自认天衣无缝的谎言时，是否想过你所骗的人一直以来察觉中？
我想大家心中自有答案。
但勿忘记，不管你做了任何抉择，都会有后果。


now i'm quite free.. in fact, bored.
it's been long since i'm bored lor...
, is it possible when tons of houseworks are waiting for you everyday?
so life is quite meaningless yea...

so, yesterday went Bugis with Yap, Cerlyn and Sam.
one of the most 有收获 day luh!
bought a shirt at S&K for 5 Bucks~! & a dress, which i don't even know when i'll ever wear it laa~!
Yap bought a similar one though..
shopping is darn tired, i must say.
the best part of shopping at Bugis is that there's ice cream for me~! HEH~!
ice cream is always ♥loves~!
of course my ♥clique as well.

having chalet on 15-17 Oct...
N804's first ..

anyway, yesterday night chatted with Ah Yap again..
seems like i'm getting insomia( is that how you spell it?) recently.
Eileen & Yap are working today at Hilton...
sad case la.. 'cause i'm not able to go with them. ):

Tomorrow goin' to take pay...
woo.. money's coming in... heh..
Wed to Fri? Chalet or work?
Sat? Going out with friend?
Sun? Prepare for school... ):
actually nothing much to prepare la..
lols..
so, my next week's not booked yet.
but i guess starting to plan le lor...

SEE! THIS is the kinda post i post when i'm BORED luh!

When there's doubt, there's no trust.

失之毫厘，差以千里

like obvious kind?

Oh ya~! i think everyone should learn san zi jing lor...
very meaningful.
http://www.chinapage.com/3words-gb.html

my 17th birthday may not be the best or most glamorous one, but it was the
warmest one.

'cause my friends, most of them, 5 years of friendship and now, they are like family to me. :)
yesterday was birthday celebration with Eileen, Yap, Cerlyn and Sam.
we went Sakae Sushi for the Sushi Buffet...
was damn bloated luh~!
like those wanna vomit kind you know...
i think i'm never gonna touch sushi for one year lor...
anyway, they gave me a bottle, which is like BIG; a jacket, which is very NICE; & a box of chocolate, which i used to love before i 'quitted' chocolates~!
& Shawn with Alan they all came in and gave me another box of chocolates.. heh... =D=D
THANKSTHANKS~! Love ya guys~!!!
heh...

some people you may hate for now
the next moment they are your best friends.

jus' like Yap & Eileen were 'enemies' in Sec 1... unexpected hor...
Kwang and me always quarrelling in Sec 1... in fact is i scold him everyday de hor... as said by Kwang la...
many things are unexpected, people.

回味前一刻，珍惜这一刻，期待下一刻，

omg~! words of cs wisdom.. hehe...
可是我不期待下一刻，也没有珍惜此刻，但有回味前一刻啦。

today's a very dunno what day...
woke up later than user at 150pm plus...
right after i woke up, went to take in clothes and sun out clothes.
take out whole family's bedsheet and wash...
didn't even eat my breakfast lor...
hais...
but it's okay la.. since tomorrow i'll be out almost for the whole day.
heh... working in St. Regis as kitchen helper with Ah Yap.

& my freaking com is infected by a stupid virus that ate up my msn, & whatever drive & what have you la...

sometimes in life, things may not go your way.

so, if things don't go your way, the wrong-est (is there even such a word?) thing you can ever do is to put the blame on others.
many of us do, honestly.
but know your limits.

sometimes in life, things may not go your way.

humans have feelings.
some of it are uncontrollable.
you hate means you hate.
you love means you love.
you may not even know why you have those feelings, but it exists.
what can you do?
basically, nothing lor...

sometimes in life, things may not go your way.

some things you have to cherish.
once gone, never return.
you may take it for granted.
mayb' you may not want to see this person, you hope for the person to jus' ignore you,
but when you get what you want, you realise you regret.
but nothing can be done.

many things i did not cherish.
i know i'll come to regret.
but i can't do anything already.

many people may be passer-by in your life.
some may be important to you at this moment
& invisible to you the next moment.
you never know what's goin' to happen.

事事难料。

i seriously don't know why i'm blogging this luh..
but as usual, my blog my say ma...
anyway, only quite a few friends know of my blog's existence so it's okay. :)
& i lost my hp cable.
so no photos.... :(

ohh.. & i hate the weather nowadays.
suny then rainy then sunny.
then i take the stupid clothes in and out.
>.<"


okays & so, yesterday as MY birthday~!
This year's birthday.. hmm...was okayyyyy....

in fact, surprisingly, i spent it with my family.
which is like almost impossible in the past.
'cause in the past i always celebrate with family at night and after that, jus' sleep.
yeps.
this year, my sis n dad brought me to eat at the airport.

after that, went to meet Ah Yap.
lols.. she made me a damn CUTEEEE doraemon card luh~!
heh... THANK YOU YAPPPPP~!
actually, my birthday quite incomplete without them with me ma...

Then met one of my friend and gave me some presents. THANK YOU as well.
After that, went nEbO...
i was SUPER kind to offer Guan Zhong & Jun Wei with a cake luh~!
& was smashed by the cake lor...
well, all my 17 years, i've never been smashed by cake before lor..
but still, THANKS GuanZhong, Jun Wei & Vio~!!!

Then, went home & saw another cake.
the cake was like expensive can?!?!
*smiles*

All in all, THANKS for those who sent sms, friendster comment, called me, met me and wished me and all. LOVE ya guys~!


HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIEW CS~!!
OMG I ♥LOVE YOU, LIEW CS~!!! hahhas~!

First of all, Thank You(s)~!

♥YAPLIYIN~!!:
MOST accurate 12AM on th dot de sms~!
Give you my VALUABLE kiss ar...
MUACKS MUACKS~!!
& Also, th birthday cake you designed for me
& Blog post~!
♥♥

♥EILEEN~!!:
THANKS AR! AUNTIE your head lor... Yesterday me & Yap is work at non-auntie venue luh~! Don't know which auntie tell me," all go up de is auntie.."
hahahahhahhas~! KIDDING LA.. XIEXIE ar~!
♥♥

JIELING =D:
5 Oct's ur birthday..
So, THANKS for your early wishes!!!!

DAPHENIE =D:
THANKS for your FS Comment~! FIRST & Only one so far~!
Hehee~!! MEETUP SOON~!

ANGIE =D:
THANKS FOR THE SMS~!!! SEE YA ON CHALET~!!!

JIAYING~!:
THANKS for the sms!
& of course, your CHIANG kiss~!
HEHEE~!

SIHUI~!:
LONG TIME NO SEE~!!! THANKS for the sms too~!! MY ACES sure mus' meetup soon~!

SAM&♥LYN~!:
THANKS BOTH OF YOU~!!! WISH YOU TWO LAST TILL END AS WELL~!! CS HAPPY HAPPY TO RECEIVE U ALL DE SMS~!
♥♥

CHUNEE~!:
THANKS for you sms, TREESTUMP~!
PROTECT YOUR BUTT PLS... HEHEE~!!!

SHAWN~!:
THANKS FOR YOU MSN MSG~!
LONG TIME NO SEE , LONG TIME NO TALK~!!!! =D=D
& PLS, not ALL girls are monsters~!!


yesterday worked at hilton...
seriously, made me wanna go back there again lor...
but i doubt i even have to chance to work long term there luh~

it's like how to say ar,
got the sense of belonging there and the people there are very nice lo.
they won't really judge you or say, like you ugly then they bully you kinda things lor...

yesterday my partner was a girl.
got along quite well and we really very fast lor...
and chatted alot...
got to know quite a few more people due to ot-ing.
yesterday there were more guys than girls.
perhaps ot-ing only 3 girls lydat in Grand Ballroom..

worked with Yap but we're separated with Eileen.
& Hilton ar, the only place that i will ever ot man...
omg~!i think i'm falling in love with Hilton more man...
hees...
mayb' it's cause Hilton's the first hotel i worked in ba..

anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY, TEN JIE LING~!!!!


it's been long since i blogged, in fact, it's been long since i even went online.
whenever i feel like spilling something out, i pen it down.
but now, my diary's not here with me.

things happened , of course.
sometimes i wonder...
is it that i can't change or what.
i've always been lydat.

i won't say i'm the best person you people can meet.
for i know i can never do it.
i have my weaknesses and i know it but i can't seem to change it.

i'm bo chap.
[unchangeable...]
i treat different people differently.
you may never see that particular side of me in your life, much less to imagine that i can be like that.
but
that's me.

today's a very happy day,
today's also not a happy day.
happy cause went to Carol's house for steamboat with the usual gang.
Chunee, Jiahao, Kwang, Junwei, Carol, Chiang, Galvin....
really playing with them ar...
can no need care image, in fact, no need care anything de lor..

my birthday's drawing near.
& Yap sent me a msg that really made me my tears filled to the brim can...
seriously, not joking...

Friends are people who never fail to make me smile.

i'm a girl who don't act like a girl?
i don't know.
lols...