long time no post le...
anyway, recently been busy with i dunno what la...
REBUS' finally over.
but it was very disappointing...
'cause we really worked hard.
though we finished the project in a rush, hais..
nevermind.
the end we got critised.
& many things la.

these few days many things happened.
i lost friends, got back friends, made new friends and what have you..


now 'cause of something my friend told me, i'm starting to think of many things..
hais..
don't understand why the things are like that.
don't even know what i'm talking now.
siao.


wa i see my previous posts damn emo lo.

scare me sia.



now damn worried 'bout damn REBUS~!

i'm afraid that i'm flying too high
& one day i'll fall...
i'm flying way too high.
i'm worried that my fall cause me greater pain.

i'm working now & i'm feeling very down...
never so down before since my o's.

what's happening to my life...
i really wanna jus' cry out loud..

i really felt very useless and helpless today.
i've never felt this way before.

i miss my grandma.
i miss joy, laughter, freedom and lots more.


Right now, i have got no one to turn to.
i'm alone.
Nothing's going right for me.

All because of this project.
First, is my group.
everyone is demoralised.
everyone is fallin' and we're stuck in the middle of nowhere.

此刻的情况是我已束手无策.
我好想一走了之。

i don't even know if we are able to finish this project in time.

After that, it's 婆婆。
婆婆让我放不下心。

婆婆，
你病得很严重。
你可以看医生吗？

婆婆从小看着我长大。
她爱我比爱谁还更多。
记得小时候，每次我被赶出门都是你在拉我。
也只有你会那样。
许多回忆挽成为无法挽回的过去。
你能好起来吗？

mama's company's retrenching.
she's facing the danger.
what can i do to help?
nothing at all.


was blog hopping and saw this webby from Angie's blog.
http://memyselfmine.blogspot.com

it's really sad luh! reading her posts will make one realise lots of things and set one's mind thinking, reflecting.

As for me, I'm worry 'bout her.
i'm afraid she'll leave me.
hais. She loved me ever since i was born,
cared for me like no one else would,
many many memories.
but now, she's sick.
i can't do anything but call her.
i want to go back to find her but there's many things to consider.
i've never told her i love her.
will you forget 'bout me one day?


i'm doing projectS with Bibi again!
i seriously hates projects man, especially when it's never ending.
& it doesn't help when my lappy is 60% confirmed infected with virus & 100% infiltrated by dunno what.
My headache ain't helping me as well.
damnit.

yesterday work was disastrous.
now 'cause of my colleagues of course.
it's the aircon...
plus i was sick ba.
i regret saying i would want to be sick if given a choice.

& now i'm doing project.
since friday never sleep well till now.
i guess i'm dying aye?

LOLS.NO! i'm strong....

jus' now we saw a puipui with his gf i think.
then when he go out of kfc, he shouted,"what ?!?! want fight come out la! come out now! "
interrupted the silence of kfc.

& my Wrtoral's not done.
fever please come now...so i would not need to go school tomorrow.. LOLS.

lastly, CAROL! we go out after exams to celebrate ur belated birthday kays~!! loves.


today's not exactly the best day and i'm tired NOW~!

okays, so basically we have this REBUS project that is getting on everyone's nerves.
because of this project, i took leave from work, i can't go out with Eileen and Yap they all, i ...whatever la...just that this project made me sacrifice many things like SLEEP~!

damnit! this afternoon, Bibi, Jling and me went Orchard to look for condo showhouses and all we get is disappointments and headaches and unwell-ness.
Then, went Bibi's house to take things and went my house to take things then headed off to the airport!
the beginning of the nightmare man.
First, we can't find a place with many plugs to plug out lappies.
Then, after that we walked for an hour plus and decided to 'reside' at Terminal 1's viewing mall.
we 'hid' ourselves behind a pot of plant and that's pretty pathetic.

okays, so during our way to find this viewing mall, we met a pilot~!
woo...cool... & so he saw us taking a trolley and asked us where're we going/flying to.
so i just say we're going to do project.
& he replied,"study hard..." that's really encouraging lo.

Then, we took the skytrain and saw an old man. He started a conversation with us and asked 'bout our nationality. Once again, mistook us for students flying overseas. xP

Bibi and me started REBUS while waiting for Chewyan, Angie and Junyih to come.
actually didn't know they coming till Bibi told me when we reach Changi Airport.
Started on our 'mission' and actually very 'gan dong' 'cause Shawn stayed online with us and do the project with us till we offline and all lo. hmm.. ya lo.
This project ar, aiyo...
anyway, right now, i'm freezing cold.... brrrrrr...
and having stomachache.
at the same time, fever just now.
but i'm STRONG man.
i believe we'll finish this stupid project well ba.
JIAYOU!
siao....
i wanna go homeeeeeeee...but i have to work later from 11 to 8...
:(


jus' edited my previous post as there's too many things that are too personal and emotional..

Today is Happy Day!
school's okay but the project is a headache.
Then, went to Ehub with Eileen & Audrey to play arcade.
Was funfun~!
we played basketball, car, bishy bashy and much more luh!
Then Junwei & Mervin came along.
lols..

Anyway, REBUS is a headache~!!!!!!!
gosh.
-in the 'high' mood-


So now's 1:40am,
not that i'm not sleepy or what, just that i'm thinking of many stuffs.
my mom wants me to quit Nebo again...
yea..again..

Though i don't work much, i do ♥love the job and of course, friends there..
there's the bond there, at least for me, if not for the others...
i'm a bit ji dong alreadyyyy.. hais...

okay so today, worked. ( like obviously yea?)
I was in a joyful/happy mood in the beginning,which is afternoon....
Working with Amy today!~
i think i can click quite well with her despite the short period we've known each other,,
perhaps we're both from HaiSing to TemasekPoly? i don't know..

actually today, quite a number of things happened.
the atmosphere ain't that good a while ago...
Some things regarding the photo i guess?
and many of us were tense, some of them were angry?nervous? i don't know also.
( sometimes i do hate myself for always don't know-ing anything)
yea...

& after all that, few of them have ♥relationship problems?
so, relationships are very fragile right?
mostly 'cause of their guys goin' into NS...
in my point of view, i think perhaps the first two weeks is tough to get through, for a couple i mean.
but subsequently, i believe even meeting up once in a week or two should be fine with trust in each other right?
trust is very important..

today i thought of many things.
guess it's sparked by the topics chatted today at work?
i'm probably quitting mid-August. T.T ):

recently, many things are happening and they upsets me.
i can't say i really love my parents truckloads, (but i do love them).
but i can say i ♥love my Grandma Lorriesloads/truckloads/as much as the biggest thing you can use here...
Anyway, i can't really elaborate much...
but she's been weighing on my mind.
i start to worry 'bout certain things...

Many Almost ALL things are decided by Fate.
No fate, no nothing.
Partings are parcel of a life.
But i seriously hate partings.
especially when partings happen at the wrong time.
or many partings happening at one time.

i want to give up.
give up on everything.
really.
i'm afraid i can't take it anymore.

can you be there for me?
or jus' brighten up my day?

i'll colour my words tomorrow.

i think i'm mad posting these kinda things.

So, these pictures are pictures of Pulau Lang Tengah....
anyone interested, please sms/call/email/msn or whatever la..
=D

friendster is having problems again, as usual.
so, i shall blog.
LOLS.

anyway, these few days, i've been, hmm, not really busy but just lazy to blog.
yea.
as usual, problems are never ending aye? xP

okay, so where shall i start...
hmm...
okays, work then...

yeps, worked at orchid bowl (who want to go bowling?????) during nebo's birthday..
& all of us who's at ehub wanted to go to the dtent luh!
seems fun ma...
anyway, i do miss all my nebo colleagues.. -.*
fun bunch of people...
i know i'm goin' to quit sooner or later but i don't know when.
& it's gonna be very sad lo..

then, school..
school's as usual with the laughing gang...
forever laughing.. lols..
but good what, laughing is good for health right?
=D

REBUS getting more intensive and i hope i can make it. (:

went Bishan with Eileen on Friday.
first time i went Junction 8 since Pri sch when i moved to Pasir Ris, i guess.
it's very nice and of course, many changes.

Then, personal now..
i realise, not referring to anyone on purpose, erm..maybe i have people in mind.
but my blog, my say what.
so, like when you do too much, people take you for granted.
so figured out the best way.
jus' back out.
when you back out totally, you don't help the person, he have no choice but to jus' finish whatever he was supposed to do.
i always thought that was very mean but sometimes, when you don't do that, you're putting more burdens on yourself.
people make use of you.
& i really hate friends who make use of their friends.
someone once told me,

don't hate a person, at most just don't like a person.

but i can't help it but starting to dislike these people who make use of their friends.
& do not wish to hate them one day.

Hate and don't like; there's difference in them.
so,

treat people how you want them to treat you.

hopefully, i really did practise what i've preached lo.

&I seriously think there's a problem with Hilton guys.
They're weird.& practically all Hilton guys have the same character that a couple of us think that they've went through some training on "how to treat girls" before they start workin'.
I know Yap's agreeing with me right..
&i don't think any Hilton guys know my pass ba hor.. (:


today, imma happy girl~!
lols.
=D

You are my sunshine my only sunshine
You make me happy when skies are grey
You'll never know dear how much I love you
So please don't take my sunshine away

The other night dear as I lay dreaming
I dreamt that you were by my side
Came disillusion when I awoke dear
You were gone and then I cried

穿上洋装看着手表
时间快到心碰碰的跳
和你的第一次约会来临了

金色的阳光洒满人行道
换了新唇膏把头发弄好
要你看到我的好
喜欢看你走路充满自信
说话时候你的专注眼神
温柔的表情笑容里的天真
我相信找不到有比你更好的人

你心里理想情人是几分
是否也会有我的份
好想知道你的100分
会给怎样的人
亲爱的你不要再陌生
增加我戏份
我想问亲爱的你把感情升等
朋友变成情人
可不可以告诉我标准
不要让我一直等

听着那时间滴答的走
对街的你在点头
好像一个梦渐渐走到我前头

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