now i'm working & seriously damn bored.
am thinking 'bout next sat's matter.
hais..

anyway, haiya.
problems are never ending...
future is always unpredictable.
unforeseen.

seriously, i think work is better than studying.
my family now is a sorta dire straits. (is that the right phrase?)
heck la.
last time the account has $***** and now it's left with $****.
so you see, it's alot of difference.
and so, i might not be able to go university next time.
i'll work hard for scholarships then.
or worse to worse, i won't go university lo.
just work.
if i can, then work to pay for university fees?

i seriously feel like crying now. not 'cause we have not enough money but like,
my life's going to change and my future's really blur.
why do some people get richer and richer within just a few years? say, TWO years!
he gets really rich and is in a life of enjoyment.
and why i'm human, they're also human but we've got different life right..
hais.

i know i'll delete this post one day soon.
maybe some of you may say, hey i'm worse.
but it's like haiya, hard to explain.
typed this post to vent only, not for comparison.
& i swear i'll break down if i'm alone now.
damn down. ):