So now's 1:40am,
not that i'm not sleepy or what, just that i'm thinking of many stuffs.
my mom wants me to quit Nebo again...
yea..again..

Though i don't work much, i do ♥love the job and of course, friends there..
there's the bond there, at least for me, if not for the others...
i'm a bit ji dong alreadyyyy.. hais...

okay so today, worked. ( like obviously yea?)
I was in a joyful/happy mood in the beginning,which is afternoon....
Working with Amy today!~
i think i can click quite well with her despite the short period we've known each other,,
perhaps we're both from HaiSing to TemasekPoly? i don't know..

actually today, quite a number of things happened.
the atmosphere ain't that good a while ago...
Some things regarding the photo i guess?
and many of us were tense, some of them were angry?nervous? i don't know also.
( sometimes i do hate myself for always don't know-ing anything)
yea...

& after all that, few of them have ♥relationship problems?
so, relationships are very fragile right?
mostly 'cause of their guys goin' into NS...
in my point of view, i think perhaps the first two weeks is tough to get through, for a couple i mean.
but subsequently, i believe even meeting up once in a week or two should be fine with trust in each other right?
trust is very important..

today i thought of many things.
guess it's sparked by the topics chatted today at work?
i'm probably quitting mid-August. T.T ):

recently, many things are happening and they upsets me.
i can't say i really love my parents truckloads, (but i do love them).
but i can say i ♥love my Grandma Lorriesloads/truckloads/as much as the biggest thing you can use here...
Anyway, i can't really elaborate much...
but she's been weighing on my mind.
i start to worry 'bout certain things...

Many Almost ALL things are decided by Fate.
No fate, no nothing.
Partings are parcel of a life.
But i seriously hate partings.
especially when partings happen at the wrong time.
or many partings happening at one time.

i want to give up.
give up on everything.
really.
i'm afraid i can't take it anymore.

can you be there for me?
or jus' brighten up my day?

i'll colour my words tomorrow.

i think i'm mad posting these kinda things.