today i don't know why.
i'm feeling quite depressed.
how i wish there's someone who could like just read my mind and lend me their listening ears.
It seems that when i'm blogging, i mostly tend to feel a little down.
i realised that i seriously don't cherish things around me.
i regret so many things that are happenning to me.
way too much..
and i know it's wrong to regret this particular matter but it seems that i can't control myself.
am i too stressed or pressured?
i seriously don't know.
my dad said i have headaches due to pressure but i don't know.
i just feel like immersing myself into studies and not think of other things.

you1: i have to hide things from you because of your relations.
you2:i don't know what to say but sorry.If you were willing to keep to your promise...how i wish.

my loved ones
i also don't know how should i react to you all.
i do need care and concern from you all.
all of you are important to me but why do the treat me with difference?
when i cry, you all laugh.
who cares about me anyway.
if it was him who cried, just a little,you all would be like....hush hush.
i have to care and love myself,since young.
sis once told me god is fair.
you all might not love me that much,but there's someone out there who loves me more than anyone.
i'm thankful for that but our distance are seas and roads apart.
i really wanted to tell you how much i love you all that day.
but i don't have the courage.
anyway, what difference would it make when we aren't even talkin now.
perhaps i'm fated not to be loved.

can you be here?
can we turn back time?
if possible, i promise i'll change.
'cause it's impossible...

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