Pa.
i'm so happy i did proved you wrong by sustaining the motivation to study and work hard.
you once said you CONFIRMED after 2 pathetic weeks,i will just return to my lazy old self.
In fact, i've not and i believe i'll not.
anyway, i also don't know what to say anymore.

I'm not emo today.(3 cheers for CS~!) LOL.
I realised in life, you will just have to move on no matter what.
The world will not stop turning just because you're tired and wants to slow down.
The sun will not stop rising just because you're sad.
And YOU will not be bothered if i'm hurt or happy or sad or whatever. xP opps.should be happy today...

Life...
It is just a process where you just live and die in the end.
You can't do anything to prevent those from happening
BUT you CAN do something to change the CONTENTS of your life and be UNIQUE from others.
Humans will have to die in the end.
It is YOUR choice whether you want to die smiling or die crying.
It is YOUR choice if you want to live your live to the fullest or just waste it by being despondent in every problem or setback.

Therefore, im going to TRY and live my life as if there's no tomorrow and HOPE when i wake up the next morning, i end up forgetting all my troubles.

Love...
I've more or less lost my faith in it.
but i always believed one day my right one will appear.
There's a story that i've heard...
there it goes...
Actually Earth's every human being are stuck with their partners and one day,
i think if don't know the God angry or what.. just something like that..
Then, God separated all couples. They are to find their Mr/Mrs Right.
Interesting eh?
hmm....

i realised another thing as well.
As i grow, i learn to keep to myself more than ever.
BUT i've also become more mature.
That's what i think anyway.
In blog, i tend to leak more of my inner feelings out.
I just can't seem keep to myself.
Anyway, only a small amount of people know of this blog.

P.S.Study is really a good method for people,who don't want to think of some other thing, to do.

Labels: life, love

today i don't know why.
i'm feeling quite depressed.
how i wish there's someone who could like just read my mind and lend me their listening ears.
It seems that when i'm blogging, i mostly tend to feel a little down.
i realised that i seriously don't cherish things around me.
i regret so many things that are happenning to me.
way too much..
and i know it's wrong to regret this particular matter but it seems that i can't control myself.
am i too stressed or pressured?
i seriously don't know.
my dad said i have headaches due to pressure but i don't know.
i just feel like immersing myself into studies and not think of other things.

you1: i have to hide things from you because of your relations.
you2:i don't know what to say but sorry.If you were willing to keep to your promise...how i wish.

my loved ones
i also don't know how should i react to you all.
i do need care and concern from you all.
all of you are important to me but why do the treat me with difference?
when i cry, you all laugh.
who cares about me anyway.
if it was him who cried, just a little,you all would be like....hush hush.
i have to care and love myself,since young.
sis once told me god is fair.
you all might not love me that much,but there's someone out there who loves me more than anyone.
i'm thankful for that but our distance are seas and roads apart.
i really wanted to tell you how much i love you all that day.
but i don't have the courage.
anyway, what difference would it make when we aren't even talkin now.
perhaps i'm fated not to be loved.

can you be here?
can we turn back time?
if possible, i promise i'll change.
'cause it's impossible...

Labels: family, friends, love